As I Bitch

I was sitting here bitching about the fact that I didn't sleep well last night and I was up way to early and its really my own fault but I am also very thankful that I stayed up late by choice, not because of pain, I am also grateful that this morning I opened my eyes another day to see my family and hug and kiss them one more time. I am thankful for the ability to sit here and speak and type because I know so many people out there can not do this. I often sit  back and put things into perspective and just be happy and smile. Smiling is the best form of medicine. Its free and you never know a smile could make someone's day better. I always take the time to smile and say hi to someone just because I'm sure their battle is far greater then the battles I face in a day. I took a moment to reflect on some things said to me last night by a selfish little 16 year old girl who has a hard life given but so angry and mean. Calling me a horrible mother, a horrible person, degrading my children before she even knew any facts about me and I couldn't imagine being that angry. I tried to talk and reason with her and in the end all her name calling, all her attitude all her delusional insults have made me even a stronger person today. I need to just  be thankful for everything I have and everything I do because no matter what she said to me, no matter how late I stayed up or even how tired i am right now. I get to feel these raw feelings because some people just do not get that opportunity today.

Hmmm what to say

I am going to give this blogging thing a go again. I have time on my hands now. I am hoping to share myself with you all. Some of you may find me interesting, other's not so much. In my own personal opinion I am not an interesting person. My life is NOT interesting, but its my life and the only one I got so why not share with the world? I'm hoping that this blog will help me get the courage up to share what I write with the world. I just do not think that I am close to good enough. I am not afraid of criticism as long as its constructive but I do not tolerate mean and that holds me back. There is a saying out there by Harriet Woods and it goes " You can stand tall without standing on someone, You can be a victor without having victims." I firmly believe that this is a statement to live by. So with all fingers and toes crossed I will hopefully work the courage up to post some of my stuff here.. Maybe I will start small and write some poetry. I am pretty decent at that At least I like to think so. I guess I will have to let you all be the judge when I get there. :) Thanks for reading. I hope you find a reason to smile today. 

Jose Nunez "Bilingual" (with lyrics) // You fucking me makes me bilingual