Farewell 2011

To sit back and say that this year wasn't a struggle would be lie. Fact of the matter is it was a hell of a struggle but I am not bitter because the outcome of this year has been absolutely amazing too. The year started out grand and the slow decline began. I was diagnosed with cervical cancer mid year. I knew something was wrong and I caught this at the earliest stage possible, I had it taken care of.. I am proud to say that at the end of the year there is no trace of cancer left in my body. Now that doesn't mean I will always remain out of the woods but dammit I punched that in the face, In the midst of all that there was family drama. I have learned that people who are supposed to love and tell you they love you don't always and that is OK because I am better off without these people, I have also learned that friends who claim to love you don't always love you either. Sometimes when things aren't in their favour they have to cause problems. We will get to that later. Also, after the surgery I had my family and I were introduced to some really brilliant people. My husband became a volunteer firefighter and we were accepted and loved by some of the greatest people. We quickly became part of the family. <3 So continuing on the emotional roller coaster my so called friends decided to turn their back on me and do some really unforgivable things. Like they tried to have my children taken from me. Making accusations beyond my own belief. Luckily, they didn't win that. the case worker saw right through those accusations. This started the end of the year to be complete win because they are experiencing some nasty stuff coming back around but i will not sit and laugh. I will not stand and cheer as I can be victor without stepping on them like they tried to do to me.I crossed paths this year with some amazing, intelligent and sweet people. They have given me confidence, they have brought a smile to my face when I didn't know if there was a smile to be had. My children have been my biggest supporters and I wouldn't be here writing this without them. They have made me smile, laugh, cry, angry and yet I sit here and look back and think I love them for that.  My husband my goodness I wouldn't know where I would be without him all these years and this year being the toughest yet he is the absolute solid rock in my life. He is my heart and soul, my peace and solace, my creativity and my hindering, he is my everything. I love learning that everyday I think I have nothing left to give him he steals yet another piece of me. I can not ever and nor do I want to imagine life without him. I have the confidence and courage now to chase my dreams because life is too short and has been proven to me that there is no discrimination in the age that you can be taken from it. My friend Sherry told me one time that I was the strongest person she knew, Thank you Sherry I love you and I believe you now. Sherry, please don't ever think that you don't make a difference or that no one cares because YOU have made a huge difference in my life and have impacted me with your passion and understanding. You are a  rare gem and I never want to lose that.  Debra, brings the biggest smile to my face because I believe in her and everything she does and stands for. Debra is simply an amazing person. My mother and father are also here in the mix somewhere because with out them.... I wouldn't be here writing. My hero's Pop Pop and Pappy, punch life in the face everyday they are alive and let me tell you those men are simply amazing and I am going to make my first post of 2012 telling you about them and their influence on me. So with this year ending on a high note I leave you 2011 with a smile on my face and love in my heart I simply can not wait to say goodbye but not bitterly because bitter is no longer a word in my vocabulary. I will say thank you for proving to me that I am strong and I am worth it. Happy New Year to all who read this.